Our pastor was preaching about 'strongholds' in our lives. Funny, in the past, that word has always made me think of things like: alcoholism, drug addiction, pornography.... you know, the REALLY 'bad' sins. (I say this sarcastically).
But this time, I realize strongholds can be other things: fear, sorrow, unforgiveness...
Both lists hinder your relationship with God and therefore keeps you from becoming what God has intended. I struggle with the latter list.
Many people have adviced me on the situation going on with Andy. They say "God loves him more than you ever could, so trust Him to take care of him", "Andy doesn't belong to you, never did " . "I have to give it God". I know in my head that is what I need to do, but my heart isn't willing, not yet. So, I struggle with fear, sorrow, unforgiveness.
So, what am I going to do about it, you ask? Kick myself in the rear and get my act together. Find scripture that will help me find the strength to keep going. KEEP PRAYING.
Maybe then I will be able to let it go.